How I feel!

BLAH, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH

and I don't know why. I just don't feel my good old self for some odd reason. I don't feel like doing anything and I just want to be alone and not around people - they have been bothering me so bad. I almost sound as if I'm depressed - I'm not, just BLAH! Do they have meds for BLAH?

Let's try this again

Alright - I'm trying this being motivated thing again. It's so hard!

Here is the food that went into my tummy today (23 points allowed)

• 3 points oatmeal
• 2 points coffee (I have one more day of the wonderful stuff - then it's bye-bye until Easter)
• 4 points chicken burger
• 0 points lettuce
• 2 points dressing
• 1 point banana
• 1 point popcorn
• 4 points turkey meatballs
• 0 points green beans
• 1 point bread
• 2 points fruit salad
• 3 points pretzels

Well I had no energy to work out today. I thought since I'm trying to get back on track here I can take it easy for a bit. Tomorrow I hope I have the same will power. There was even yummy candy in the staff lunch room today, but I didn't touch it. I looked at it longingly and almost gave in. I placed the lid on the container about 4 times. Ahhhhh..... Why does this have to be so hard?

Happy Birthday Delton!

We are less than 2 hours away to having a 4 year old in our house.  He wanted a space theme this year.

Here is his cake.

A dose of Motivation?

Does anyone have a dose of motivation they are willing to sell? I was going so strong and I just want to give up now. I know - "you are doing well, blah, blah, blah". But, I lost my spark and need to find it. It seems like this every winter.

I guess a lot of it is I'm frustrated beyond belief. If you don't want to hear about women problems stop right there and close the window.

I watch what I eat and exercise and I just don't lose a thing. I'm thinking it might be an issue caused by my birth control (IUD). My doctor asked how I liked the form of birth control I was using and I said that I loved it. She said that she was thinking of doing it, but didn't want to because of the side effect of not being able to lose weight or you gain weight. Well that might be the deal then for me. Since I got it last April, I have been stuck and stuck some more. Should I stop the use of it? But it's so easy and I don't even need to think about it. The thing is, I'm not sure we are done having kids, so I don't want to take extreme actions.

Any thoughts?

Creative time

I haven't blogged much these past two months and when I did it was about what I ate (which I need to start doing again).

I actually made Delton's birthday invitations.  Take a look.  This years theme is space!

Facebook

I have been consumed by facebook.  I haven't posted anything here for ions.  This facebook thing needs to stop.  Like I need one more thing to do on the computer.

Monday's Points

I have been recording my points, but not posting them.

Monday

• 2 points   coffee
• 1 point     canadian bacon
• 1 point     english muffin
• 5 points   beef merlot Healthy Choice meal
• 1 point     clementine
• 2 points    yogurt
• 4 points    chili (with chocolate in - Weight Watchers recipe!)
• 1 point       bread
• 1 point      broccoli slaw
• 1 point      popcorn
• 3 points    cheese puffs
• 1 point       mango

I also exercised tonight!

Pancakes - Yummy

I'm a girl who loves to eat pancakes and I have cut back to having none!  Why should I eat a pancake with the diameter of 2 inches for 3 points then slather syrup on for another 2 points?

Well I saw an advertisement for Fiber One Pancakes, so I bought them to give it a try.  For a 1/2 cup of mix it equals only 3 points and the pancake is huge.  I then bought sugar free syrup and it's only 1 point for 1/4 cup.  I made them this morning, but of course burnt one, trying to get the kids ready for church and make my breakfast at the same time - not a good thing.  I finally made a good one and they tasted pretty good!  The batter tasted gross - I like to eat batter, but not this one!

Why don't you try it!

My journal

Monday:

• 2 points    coffee
• 3 points    fiber one poptart
• 1 point      pretzel
• 1 point      fruit strip
• 3 points    soup
• 1 point      bread
• 3 points    chicken
• 0 points    lettuce
• 2 points     dressing
• 2 points     coffee
• 2 points    fiber 1 bar
• 1 point      clementine
• 2 points    jelly bread

Tuesday:  Another day.  I'm having a hard time lately.  I need to refocus my thinking.

• 2 points   coffee
• 3 points   oatmeal
• 1 point     roll
• 1 point     lunch meat
• 1 point     banana
• 1 point     clementine
• 4 points   turkey
• 1 point     refined beans
• 0 points   lettuce
• 0 points   salsa
• 2 points    cheese
• 1 point     popcorn
• 2 points   wrap 
• 3 points   ice cream sandwich
• 1 point    turkey jerky

Another Week

Well we went to the farm show on Friday!  Which means yummy yummy yummy food.  So, I cheated - oh well.  Yesterday I went scrapbooking and had tons of yummy food again.  I hoped back on the wagon this morning and starting all over!

I finally did - joined facebook.  I think Tim wishes he never gave me the idea.  He has been after me for months, maybe over a year to join  and I was not interested.  So, I did it today.  Do you want to be my friend?  

I'm still here

Life has been very busy here in our household.  Thanks Am for checking in on me!!

Monday's points

• 2 points     coffee
• 1 point       english muffin
• 1 point       canadian bacon
• 1 point       apple
• 0 points     lettuce
• 1 point       dressing
• 4 points     chicken salad
• 1 point       dum dum lollipop
• 1 point       roll
• 3 points     turkey
• 2 points     rice
• 1 point       peas
• 2 points     fiver one bars
• 1 point      broccoli slaw
• 2 points    graham crackers
• 1 point       popcorn

I also exercised!!

Tuesdays points

• 3 points      oatmeal
• 2 points      coffee
• 2 points      soup
• 1 point        pineapple
• 1 point        clementine
• 1 point        fruit strip
• 2 points      fiber one bar
• 3 points      ham and green beans
• 3 points      bread and jelly
• 2 points      yogurt
• 2 points      jello

No exercising tonight.  I have a report due on Thursday for my job so I have been working on that.

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Where is the Snow??

Well it didn't happen.  they said we were suppose to get 1-6 inches of snow.  We have a millimeter of snow, some sleet and nothing else.  :-(

I had a scrapbook party.  I only had one person show.  That stinks doesn't it?  I'm glad at least one person came because I felt really bad for the woman.  Creative memories now has a computer program that you can make your pages up on your computer and just print them out and place them in your scrap book.  I'm so into getting this!!!  Just think how much time it will save to do some of my pages with this program.  They print 12x12 pages.  How cool is that and they look like they have been scraped!  

Today was a rough day for eating.  I have the munches.  I'm off to exercise, if I can get my legs moving.  I'll fill in my food points later.

Make it stop hurting!

OK

Let me tell you how bad my legs hurt!!!!!!!!!!!

I didn't exercise last night because I can't move my legs!!!  I practically cry when I have to go down steps.  Beth has killed me.  I have to at least workout tonight to keep up with everything,

We are suppose to get snow today.  Haven't seen any.  We bought the kids snow boots, but I refuse to take the tags off.  If we don't get snow I am returning them.  Also, why are kids boots so expensive?  They were them like 2 or 3 times and that is it.  I just don't get it.

Fat Ticker Friday

I lost 5 pounds!!!!!  Yeah.

Boy am I sore though from last night.  

Point break down for the day.

• 1 point     roll
• 2 points   veggie pattie
• 1 point      banana 
• 2 points    coffee
• 0 points    lettuce
• 0 points    pickle
• 2 points     roll
• 3 points     beef and sauce (estimation)
• 1 point      popcorn
• 3 points     spaghetti
• 2 points     sauce
• 2 points     soup!!!!!
• 3 points     150 calorie Betty Crocker Warm Delight Dessert

Death by Beth

Well I went to a workout titled:  "Death by Beth" tonight.  Once of the teachers in our district has it Tuesday and Thursday nights.  So, I thought I would give it a try.  It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but it was rough.  My other friend said, just do what you can.  I'm thinking she thought I was really out of shape.  But, I kept up with them.  The only problem I had doing was jumping jacks (my bladder doesn't do so well since I had kids - it's very weak.  I think I need a diaper next time - not a big one, maybe newborn size) and a plank.  

I went to my conference today.  They had sandwiches, salad, macaroni salad, chips and cookies.  I had a sandwich (with only half the roll) and salad.  I left the cookies and chips alone.  Yeah for me!  I'll finish my post later about my points for today.

Tomorrow is weigh in day!

My Points for the day:

• 2 points    coffee
• 1 point      english muffin
• 2 points    veggie pattie
• 1 point      banana
• 0 points    lettuce
• 3 points     turkey lunch meat 
• 2 points     1/2 roll
• 3 points     dressing
• 4 points     sausage
• 0 points     carrots
• 2 points     spag. squash and sauce
• 2 points     fruit salad

Day 6

I exercised once again today!!  I think I might go try a class that a friend of mine offers after school tomorrow.  It's called Death by Beath!  Sounds scary doesn't it.

My points for today:

• 1 point     English Muffin
• 2 points    Veggie sausage pattie
• 0 points   lettuce
• 2 points    dressing
• 2 points    chicken noodle soup
• 2 points    low fat lunch meat
• 2 points    fruit salad
• 2 points    coffee
• 3 points    3 ounces of chicken
• 2 points     rice
• 1 point      peas
• 3 points    Weight Watchers frozen desserts
• 1 point      fruit strip
• ?  points    a handful or two of pretzels with peanut butter filling (shame on me - but they were good!)

I head to a conference tomorrow and the lunch is provided.  I hope it's a good healthy choice and I get lunch on Friday at another training! 

1 more day before I weigh in! 

Day 5

I'm sitting here watching the Biggest Loser, my favorite show.  I watch this and it helps me realize, that I am doing a good job watching my weight and trying to keep it off.  I have had 40 plus pounds off for over a year now.  It's those last 20 pounds that are the hardest.  If I wasn't doing a good job, I would be over 200 pounds.  

Here is my break down of points for the day (can you guess what I had - SOUP!)

• 3 points     Fiber 1 muffin (It didn't really fill me - I was hungry by 10:30)
• 5 points     Tomato Bisque Soup
• 1 point       fruit salad
• 4 points     I had two coffees today
• 0 points     Spaghetti Squash
• 2 points      Spaghetti Sauce
• o points     Mushrooms
• 3 points      Bunny Milk
• 1 point         Olive oil
• 2 points        2 % cheese
• 0 points        Lettuce
• 2 points        Dressing

I'm not working out tonight, since I watched the Biggest Loser.  I wish I had a TV with cable in front of my eliptical (spelling - no clue) machine.

Day 4

Today was my first day back at work and it wasn't to bad.  I did pretty well.

Here is my point break down for today

• 3 points   Oatmeal with brown sugar and vanilla
• 2 points   Coffee with cream
• 5 points   Cheeseburger soup (WW recipe)
• 0 points   lettuce
• 2 points    dressing
• 5 points    Ham loaf (some Pennsylvania Dutch thingy)
• 2 points    Fruit Salad
• 1 point      3 ounces of potato
• 0 points   green beans (lots of them)
• 3 points   Bunny milk (my husbands name for strawberry milk)

Once again I exercised tonight.  Now I'm off to read, Twlight.  Since everyone keeps talking about it - I had to read it.

Tomorrow is Day 5 already.  I have my menu already planned out and ready to go.  Guess what I am going to have again?  SOUP!!!!!!!  Do you have a favorite low fat soup recipe that you would like to share?

Day 3

Well I have made it to day 3.  I know the most challenging days are to come.  I'm very proud of myself and didn't have 1 cookie!!!  I sat in front of them and touched one about 4 times.  I picked it up, sat it down, picked it up, sat it down, etc...  But, I didn't cave in.  I had an extra cup of coffee instead.  

Writing down everything that I eat is a great big help.  Here is my point break down for today.

• 1 point  English Muffin
• 2 points  Vegetarian Sausage pattie
• 1 point    roll
• 3 points  turkey lunchmeat
• 2 points   chicken noodle soup
• 4 points  2 cups of coffee with cream
• 2 points   baked beans
• 1 point    roll
• 2 points  cheese
• 1 point    Broccoli Slaw

I had all my water once again and brace yourself:  Worked out!!

Tomorrow I'm back at work and they are starting the biggest looser contest.  I'm joining that!!  Anything for some motivation!

Day 2

I did great until - I was making cookies tonight.  I just looooooovvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeee cookie batter.  My son is receiving his first communion tomorrow and I asked him what he wanted for dessert and he said, "Sugar cookies with icing and sprinkles".   AHHH!  What is he thinking.

I even went out 2 times today.

I went out to lunch with my great friends Pam and Amy - without the kids.  We just loved being able to sit there and talk without being interrupted about 50 times.

Here is my point break down for today:

• 1 point   english muffin
• 2 points  vegetarian sausage pattie
• 3 points  salad bar at Ruby Tuesday's
• 4 points  White Bean Chicken Chili
• 2 points  Coffee
• 1 point    Pineapple
• 4 points  Chargrilled Chicken Salad
• 2 points  dressing
• 1 point     fruit strip
• 3 points   Chicken Noodle Soup
• 50,000 points   Cookie Dough

As you can see I have been loving soup.  That is my comfort food and I feel full when I eat it.  Tomorrow is a new day  :-)

Change my life - Day 1

Well today was the first "official" day to change my life.

I tracked all my points and food and drank all my water (which I find to be the thing that works for me).  Here is what I had today

• 3 points   Oatmeal with brown sugar and vanilla
• 2 points   Coffee with Mocha Mint Flavoring
• 0 points   Lettuce
• 3 points    3 ounces of chicken breast
• 2 points    Fat Free Honey Mustard Dressing
• 2 points    Hot and Sour Soup
• 1 point      Broccoli Slaw
• 5 points    Tomato Bisque Soup
• 3 points    3 ounces of chicken breast (again)
• o points    Lettuce (again)
• 0 points    Salsa
• 0 points    1 tablespoon of Fat Free Sour Cream
• 1 point      Banana
• 1 point      Popcorn

My husband and I made a team at this sight for some friends.  If you want to join us let us know - we won't be able to baby sit (the prize) if you live to far away, but it's nice to have a little competition.   I'll send you an invite.  

Tomorrow I am meeting some friends and Ruby Tuesday (HI Pam and Amy).  I have planned out my meal.  So, Pam and Amy make sure I stick to it.

I'm going to have the salad bar (no cheese or croutons or slaws or bacon bits - only light dressing) and a cup of white bean chili (Ruby Tuesday)  or I will go with the chicken wrap.

Mental Breakdown

I had my annual mental breakdown this morning.  Does that ever happen to anyone else?

As you all have read I have been dealing with weight issue, most of my life.  I was never thin in middle school or high school (1 year when I lost a lot of weight).  

This morning Tim had to witness my emotional breakdown once again.  I just want answers and can never get them.  As some of you know I really don't eat anything "bad" or large amounts (only on special occasions).  These are my questions, my thoughts, my statements:

• Why can't I ever loose it all when I mostly eat healthy everyday?
• I don't ever eat anything fried 
• I don't eat candy (maybe it would equal 3-4 bars a year)
• I don't eat chips  (maybe 1 or 2 times a year)
• I don't eat ice cream (maybe 1 or 2 times a year)
• I'm not a big drinker
• I only drink water and occasional diet soda (sometimes less than 2 a month)
• I do love coffee - maybe that is my issue, but I only have 1 cup a day (2 points with cream)
• I keep track of what I eat - in  my yellow polka dotted tablet (that goes every where with me)

I just don't understand why I have to struggle with this issue.  It's just not fair.  I know, I know life's not fair, but give me a break.  Tim says that I'm healthy and should just be happy, but I'm not happy.  I so want to keep it off forever.  I guess he is right in a way.  I am healthier than most people.  But, why can those skinny minnies eat so much unhealthy crap and keep it off, I just don't get it.  Why not reward those who watch all the time.  

I'm sorry for ranting, but I need to leave it out some where.  

Also, why does a new year always make everyone want to start loosing weight?  

Does anyone have  a trigger?  I have found mine and it's sad to say but it's true:

• When I go home to my mom's, dad,s or mother-in-laws house.  When I am there I tend to want to eat and eat and eat.  Why is that?  Is that where the problem began?  Maybe this is an issue that I need to resolve.   Even though I go with good intentions, they always fall through.  

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