I hate holiday food!

Well as the ticker states at the top - I didn't make my goal.  I actually gained during this holiday season.  

Why does food have to taste so good and be so bad for you?  The thing is, if I just take a few bites of something bad I blow up.  I watch others eat at the family and table and wish I could eat like them.

I'm back on the boat, as of starting Sunday.  I'm going to have my last indulgence on New Year's Eve and that is it.  

Why does this journey have to be so hard.  I feel like I have been on this journey for to many years.  I have always been battling my weight.  So, it's starting to get old.  

Not going to make a goal

Well I guess I'm not going to make my goal by my birthday.  I love the holidays, but not all the yummy food that sits there and temps you.  

Here's to those peanut butter cookies dipped in milk chocolate! and a beer on the side.

Christmas Pillow Cases!

I have them ready if anyone would like one for the holiday!!  Check out my other blog 

Sew Sweet Dreams 

I need your support!

My birthday is in 18 days!!!  Yes, I will be over 30 then - 31  :-(

I have a goal - I would love to loose 8 pounds until then.  Send me some love and motivation.  

I'm going to go exercise, yes, I'm going to try to do it again!  

Go Black Team!

Alright I just freaked out as if I'm watching a football game!

Get rid of Heba!!!!  Amy will turn to the black side if they vote for Heba.

The Biggest Loser

I'm freaking out right now.  I'm watching the end where they are getting weighed in.  

Let me tell you that I can't stand Vicky.  She is just plain MEAN!!!  She reminds me of a very mean person I work with (who I'm about to tell off, but I keep my mouth closed!)

I wish I could be as successful as they are.  I lost what I gained on vacation, but didn't help with the process today.  I need to get back on track.  I want to lose 8 or more pounds by my birthday in December!  I guess if I spent 6-8 hours a day in the gym it could happen.

Cross your fingers for black team!

Pillow Cases

15 cases!!  I have sold 15 pillow cases!

Check out my store/blog.

What is exercise?

Yeah - I'm doing a great job exercising!  NOT!!!!!!!!  What is that?  I need to start up.  

This week

I exercised 2 times so far this week, but not today.  I really don't feel like it.  Why?  I should - I need to.  Wanted to share a picture of me from Halloween.  When I saw it I was shocked.  I didn't realize that I looked little.  That might be because I'm standing by my giant brother.  I guess that will make me want to exercise.  We will see.  Yeah - I'm picking out a piece of candy, but it's for Delton.  I probably ate it anyways.  Do you like my sippy cup?

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Not meeting goal

So, I'm not going to meet my exercise goal for this week.  I'm just tired and just want to go to bed.  We went to help my friend paint today her new house that she is getting built.  So, painting has made me a little tired, plus being in the car for 2 hours.  While there I had a cupcake, but oh was it good.  Her mother-in-law made them.  She is like the best baker on the east coast.  It was soooooo good.  I almost had two, but didn't.  Tim did though - dork.  He can eat everything and anything and not a gain a single ounce.  Why is that?  I just have to smell it and boing - 5 pounds added onto my butt.

Oh, isn't it grand being a woman!

Day 10

After eating some candy and some more.  I decided to work out.  I need 2 more days Saturday and Sunday to meet my 6 days a week goal for working out.

Fat Ticker Friday

Had to step on the big bad scale.  But, it was a good thing.  I'm down 1.4 pounds.  As I stated in my last post.  I need to stay away from the candy.  Why is it so hard to not eat sweats?  I wish I didn't like chocolate.

Day 9

Got in another workout.  I need to workout tonight, tomorrow and Sunday to meet my goal for the week.

Boy is the candy tasting good though!  I love this time of year, but I don't like the candy issue.

YUMMY!!!!  GIVE ME MORE!!!!

Day 7 and 8

Well this is my second week of working out.  My goal is again to work out 6 days out of 7.  I worked out yesterday and today, that is 2 days, only 4 more to go.

I also started wearing an pedometer.  I read that you should try to walk 10,000 steps a day.  Well as of now, I'm going to bed next, I walked 9,976 steps.  I'm so close.  I'll get the last 24 steps going up to the second floor to get ready.

I also read that you should try to increase your steps by 500 every week, but that is based on people who don't walk 10,000 steps a day.  I have to research it some more.

Day 6

Well I made it to day 6 of my exercise goal (6 out of 7 days).  Yeah!  

Nothing like having a beer though before you exercise.  It's Saturday, time to relax!

Day 5

Still continuing on the exercise cycle.  Didn't really want to exercise today, but I did.

Fat Ticker Friday

I was a bad girl last week and didn't weigh in. -sorry.  I actually gained again and was embarrassed.  I was up 3 pounds.  Don't know what in the world is going on.    So, I worked very hard this week, but was only down 1.1 pounds.  I started exercising.  Hopefully that helps.

Day 4

Today was a lot better with the wanting to eat everything.  

Exercised once again - 4 days down 5 million more to go!

Day 3

Today was a rough day.  I just wanted to eat again.  What in the world is going on with my brain?

Exercised for the 3rd day.  How many days do they say you need to do something to make it natural?  I'm thinking in the 50's.

Day 2

Yes, I did it again.  Exercised!  WOW!  I'm using The Biggest Loser Workout DVD.  It's a 6 week workout.  Hopefully I can keep it up.  

The world is about to end...

Yes, you read that correctly.  The world is about to end because, take a seat, I exercised.  I know, quick lay down before you fall over and bump your head.  

Hopefully I can keep it up.

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Thanksgiving Pillow Cases

Here are my Thanksgiving pillow cases.  I have only a few days before the craft show.  I'm going to start Christmas next.  Hopefully I get them done by Saturday.

Fat Ticker Friday

Well I didn't do so well this week.  I didn't count my points like a did last week.  I am up 2.1 pounds, I'm sorry everyone.  I feel awful.

This week my goal is to once again is to count points all week.  

Not doing so good

Alright - I'm having a rough week with dealing with eating.  I WANT TO EAT EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING!!  What is the problem?  I don't want to weigh in on Friday and disappoint my peeps for at Hot for the Holidays.  Maybe I can be lumpy for the holidays.  Hopefully blogging will get this out of my system.  I hope!

Another job again?

Well another job came up that I really didn't want to look into, but my supervisor asked if I would be interested in the position.  The position title is:  PA-Pre-K grant facilitator.  Sounds fancy, doesn't it?  My supervisor was thinking of combing some of what I do with that job, which would be nice.  Basically I would almost be the director of the preschool building in our director, but I wouldn't be anyone's supervisor.  Does that make sense?  I would just make sure the grant is being followed and that everything is going well at the building, run meetings and attend meetings in Harrisburg.  I was kind of on the fence, so I just decided to do it.  I was asked if I could come in early like 6:30  - and I was like NO!  I can't even get my butt out of bed at that time anymore.  But, the good thing would be that I would be done at 1:30.  I would still get my teacher pay and still be part of the local union.  I have been talking to an old coworker trying to convince her to apply for the position.  I didn't think she would, but she did.  I actually think she would be a better person for the job and I hope she gets it.  It would be great working with her again.  I would love having Tuesday and Friday coffee days back again (we got each other coffee on those days from DUNKIN DONUTS  - I LOVE DUNKIN DONUT COFFEE!!!!)

Enough rambling!  I just don't know if I did the right thing?  It's been weird lately how everything is falling into place.  I wonder why?

Fat Ticker Friday

Holy Moly!!  I stepped on the scale this morning and about died.  I'm down 3.9 pounds.  YEAH YEAH YEAH.

I was very strict on my points this week and made sure I wrote everything down.  I'm beyond happy!

Thanks,

Tonight I was so hungry, but I went for the Coca-Cola zero.

I wanted to eat everything and anything. But, I needed to keep my peeps at Hot for the Holidays happy. It also helped that the Biggest Loser was on tonight. It amazes me each week how hard all the contestants work. I wish I had the time to workout like that. Maybe the school district will allow me to go on the Biggest Loser with a paid leave of absence. NOT! I was so upset that the Jerry from the yellow team went home, but after seeing how well he did at home on his own, I was very pleased. I thought he wouldn't follow through at home. Way to go Jerry, he looked good. I should have never doubted.
        

Halloween Pillow Cases

I finally finished my Halloween Pillow Cases for the Craft show on the 17th of October. I'm going to start working on Thanksgiving tonight.

Hot for the Holidays - First Weigh in

Alright, we went camping last week and I gained about 5 million pounds and didn't really eat much.  I had 2 smores and about 8 marshmallows all together.  Don't know what's going on with my funky body.  So, I decided to join Hot for the Holidays and it's weigh in time.  I'm down 1.4 pounds!!  Yeah!  

I think it was very helpful having to weigh in on Friday and that everyone depended on me to get it closer to the goal of 500 pounds off.  When I went to have that small piece of candy, I just had to think about everyone else.  Hopefully this keeps me motivated!!

We'll see what happens next week.

Hot for the Holidays.

Well I think I found some motivation.  I found this on Jen's web site and I'm going to give it a try.  Hopefully it works.  I guess we will see on Friday.

Happy Halloween

Apparently not sewing for a month causes problems. It was as if I forgot. Have to keep practicing.  I got three done tonight.

 

A month!

I can't believe it's been a month since I posted.

Like my new ticker up top?  Yeah - weight loss is kind of going slow, hence the snail.

I stopped going to Weight Watchers meeting because I wasn't loosing anything and had to keep paying.  So, I have been following the program by myself at home.  So, far alright.  I just can't budge.  I know I need to exercise and then it will, but I'm to tired and unmotivated at this point.  I'll just keep watching at home.  I 'll get there.

I'm going to work on some Halloween pillow cases.  I want to have some to post tonight.

More Back to School

I have finished my back to school pillow cases.  It's onto Halloween (the really fun ones!)

If interested in purchasing a back to school pillow case, please contact me at brixius@mac.com

1 for $10 or 3 for $25 (They can be a combination of holidays and not just back to school cases)

Back to School Pillowcases

I finished 3 back to school pillowcases this afternoon. I'm stocking up for the craft fair that is in October. If you see a case that you like - let me know. I'm selling them $10 a piece or 3 for $25

I'm working on some with pink and purple accents too.

Back on track

Well it's a new day and week.  We are at home and I'm really watching what I am eating.  

Started working on back to school pillow cases.  I'll have to remember to post pictures when I get some done.

Have a great week.

Random Recipes

I have never posted a recipe on Pam's blog - thought I would give it a try.

Chocolate Chip Cookies (Weight Watcher's Recipe - they are yummy~!!)

Ingredients:  

• 1 cup all-purpose flout
• 1/4 tsp baking soda
• 1/8 tsp table salt
• 1/4 cup butter, softened
• 1/2 cup dark brown sugar, packed
• 1/2 cup sugar
• 1/3 cup unsweetened cocoa
• 2 large egg whites
• 1/3 cup semi-sweet chocolate chips, miniature
• 1 spray cooking spray

Instructions:

• Preheat oven to 350˚F
• Lightly spoon flour into a dry measuring cup; level with a knife.  Combine flour, baking soda and salt in a large bowl
• Beat butter and brown sugar with a mixer at medium speed until light and fluffy; gradually add granulated sugar, beating well.  Add cocoa and egg whites, beating well.  Gradually add flour mixture, beating until blended.  Stir in chocolate chips
• Drop by rounded teaspoonfuls onto baking sheets coated with cooking spray.  Bake at 350˚ F for 10 minutes.  Cool on pans 2 minutes or until firm.  Remove cookies from pans; cool completely on wire racks.  Yield: 40 cookies (serving size 1 cookie = 1 point)

Tail between my legs...

Alright I blew it.  I ate and drank and ate and drank (not to much drink, but a lot more than I'm use to, since I don't drink anything at all).  Oh, well it is over and I'm just going to get back on track.  Maybe it's what I needed.

Tomorrow is a new day and I'm positive that I can do a great job.

What day is it?

I'm at that point that I don't know what day it is.  I like that, but don't at the same time.  Has that ever happened to you?

I was good for 2 days watching what I ate, but I gave up counting points.  It's been so hard figuring out everything, since we take turns making meals.  So, I have been trying to be careful with the amounts I eat.  I have had a few cookies here or there, but only when we get back to the house.  I'm fine at the beach, but when we come back around 3 I have major munchies.  

Still having a great time.

Hello from Bethany Beach!

Don't you love to see a picture of me?  Yeah - I know I have two pairs of sun glasses on.  My ghostly white body - hardly got burnt.  Just around my straps.  The kids are having a great time.  I have been pretty good watching what I'm eating - but, I'm having some adult beverages in the evening though.  I'm loving - Pete's Wicked Strawberry Blonde Beer!  Have to love it!

I did!

I went to get weighed in this morning and I was down 2.4 pounds! YEAH!! So, not stepping on the scale thing worked. It made me really watch what I ate and I didn't sneak things in because the scale went down. Well we head out to the beach in an hour. I will probably be blogging from there, since we have wireless access and Tim needs to write his paper for his graduate class - why not blog since I am able to.

Doing better

I have had a better outlook this week about my motivation.  Thanks for the comments, they helped a lot.  I didn't splurge, but did a weekend of not counting points and made good choices (had a s'more - ahhhh sooooo good).  I guess the true effect will be seen Saturday when I go and get weighed in.  I also decided to cut one habit that I have and that is the scale in the bathroom.  I'm a person who weights themselves about 3 times a day and I know that is the wrong thing to do.  So, I have not stepped on the scale all week and I have been writing everything down.  Everyday I look at that scale and have a battle in my mind (should I, no, Should, no).  But, I have been good.  I have to admit it is an obsession a bad one.  I stress out if I don't see the numbers move - I need to stop that.  Maybe I'll ask hubby to hide the scale on me. I think that is a good idea.

We head off to the beach with family and friends Saturday.  I'm hoping I can do a great job.  I'm kind of scared because I'll spending time with my family - the people who helped start some of the bad eating habits that I have become accustomed to over time.  My mom is also on weight watchers, so hopefully that will help.  Maybe I'll help her too.  We need to make it a team effort.  I know I am always figuring out and counting points.  I don't see her do it to often, but she might have a way that works for her (she might record later).  Hopefully we can pull through it together

I'm kind of excited to wear my new bathing suit (brown with teal polk-a-dots - very cute).  Yes, of course it has a skirt bottom, but hey when you have a nest of spider veins on your legs you try to hide them (is there surgery to correct that?) as best as you can.  I usually don't admit clothing size, but I'm going to now.  My suit is a 12 (probably could have gotten away with a 10 - but I wanted length on the skirt!), better than that size 18/20 women's I wore last year.  Typing that actually made me feel good.  I don't have to buy in the women's department anymore!!!!  WOW!!!!  YEAH!!

Memory Tag

I saw this on Em's blog and thought I would post it on my blogs (family blog).

1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.

I can't wait to read your memories.

3 more down

I completed 3 more 4th of July pillow case. I have 3 more to make and then I'm moving onto back to school.

For my Little Man!

As most of you know D loves any type of creature. He wanted a new pillowcase, so I let him pick out the material. He picked  lizards.   Today he asked me, "When are you going to finish my pillowcase?" (Yes, those are the exact words - if you have ever sat down and talked with him, you know it's true). So, tonight I sat down and worked on his lizard pillowcase. Here is the end result. I think it turned out awesome, if I have to say so myself. The little accent color between the lizards and the green is an orange color, it's hard to tell in the picture.

3 down 5,000 to go

Here are the 3 pillow cases that I got done. I'm asking $10 for one case or $25 for 3 (once I get other holidays done).

I need a dose of Motivation...

Wouldn't it be great to be able to buy motivation in a bottle?  I'm starting to get soooooooooooooooo frustrated with losing weight.  I have been watching and watching and I'm just not going anywhere.  I even dropped a point to see if that made a difference, but nope.  

I know I should be happy with what I have lost already - 46 pounds is awesome, but I'm being greedy and want more.  Yes, I'm healthier and am able to do more.  

Why does it have to be so hard?  Why is it so easy to gain?  Why do some people have it so easy and don't gain an ounce?  Why am I asking why?  

Right now I feel like giving up and just eating whatever I want, but I know that isn't the answer.  I know I need to keep working and I know it is a life change.  Just working like this for over a year is hard.  I want to eat a big ass piece of cheesecake with chocolate chips,  I want to eat 4 pieces of pizza instead of one, I would love to have some Lancaster Brewing Company Strawberry wheat beer (I LIKE BEER!), I want some Burger King onion rings with zesty dipping sauce, I would love a whopper with extra pickles and no tomatoes, a couple white russians, a little bit of candy (not a big candy fan) and the list can go on.  

I guess I should stop being a poppy head and get over it.  

On another note - I have 3 pillow cases done.  I'll have to post pictures soon.

Told you!

Well I was right about the weight thing, I gained .2 pounds. I know that isn't much.  But, I gained 2 weeks ago and this week.  I need to really work hard!!

Weigh in time

Alright I did a great job this week, until tonight.  Tim and I went out on a date tonight (We haven't done this in like a million years).  I did pretty well.  I had an adult beverage (yummylicious) and chicken fajitas - without the shells.  I was stuffed.  I'll probably swell up from all the salt for my weigh in tomorrow.  We then went for coffee and dessert.  I had the coffee (FF milk) and ate a few bites of Tim's dessert.  We'll see what happens tomorrow.  Somedays - I feel like not paying for WW and doing it myself with there plan.  I have all the info I just need to follow through.  It would save some money - I guess I'm just frustrated on how slow the weight loss is going lately.  I should exercise - but I just don't feel like it.  I have no motivation to exercise lately.  Enough downing myself, time for bed.

Wish me luck at the scale tomorrow morning.  

My virtual makeover

Jen had a Mary Kay virtual makeover on her blog and I had to give it a try.  I tried to give myself long hair, but it looked awful - since I have no hair hanging down my back.  I looked like I shaved the back of my head and kept the sides very long.  I had such a great time doing this.  I laughed a lot when I got to play with the eye shadows.  I was practically rolling on the floor.  Click here for some fun.

Enjoy!

After looking at the picture a few times, I think I look like I have some country music hair going on.

My 8 Names

I sent this as an email, but thought it was funny!

My Eight Names 

1. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle) 
Aleizzle

2. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color and favorite animal)
Yellow Dog

3. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME (your middle name and street you live on/or
neighborhood if it's a number) 
Lee Mary

4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2
letters of your first name)   

Brial

5. YOUR SUPERHERO/CRIMINAL NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite
drink)  

Blue Water

 

6. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your
last name, 1st letter of your last name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden
name, 3rd letter of your dads name, 1st letter of a siblings first name,
and last letter of your moms first name)? 

Libclja

7. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (parents middle names)? 

Helen Delton

 

8. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)? 

Black Penny

Thanks Renee

I want to thank Renee for the tiara!!!  My dream has been complete!!

Prayers for Janessa

Click on the following image and read Janessa's journey about fighting cancer at such a young age. She is an amazing little girl and her family is great too. This is not a scam - it is 100% true.

Her aunt Korin is hosting some fundraisers on her site. If you are interested in helping this family out, check it out.

Issues.

I wasn't able to get weighed in this week.  I was gong to do it Saturday morning and my husband and I had some "issues".  So, I was stubborn and didn't go and he went and did his thing that he wanted to do.  argh.....

I am one of the most stubborn people in the world.  Why is that?  The scary thing is - my son is the same way.  H thinks that is why my son and I butt heads so often and I think I'm starting to believe that.  My son is a little me!   OMG

I got 3 4th of July pillow cases done.  I should be working on them now, but I'm to lazy!  

Virtual Model

I saw this virtual model on Lorie and Jen's blog. Thought I would give it a try.  The thing they should add is spider veins for you to add to your legs (LOL).

Me at 200+ pounds                    Me at my current weigh 

     

Me at g0al

Oh, well.

I went and got weighed in on Saturday and I gained a pound. I wanted to scream because I was so good and watched everything and wrote it down. Why does this weight loss journey need to be so hard and long?

I realized that I have been watching what I have been eating for over a year now. I have lost 46 pounds (actually 45 - but I'm not counting that pound) in a year (not all through weight watchers). That averages out about 3.8 pounds a month, which isn't so bad. I could be over 200 pounds today if I didn't start watching what I ate. I am healthier and happier.

Yesterday afternoon, I played dress up in the attic. I started trying on some of my formal dresses from high school and weddings. All were to big!!!!! Yeah! I'm not at my smallest weight ever right now, but they were big. I love to dress up in formal dresses - I should be a queen in a far away country, so I can dress up like that often. Well I do have royal blood, since being prom queen (but I never got a tiara for that, just roses, I would have rather had a tiara! - I need to get over that). Maybe I should just dress up once a week and walk around Lancaster that way. Do you think anyone would mind? I could imagine that looks I would get.

Happy 4th of July

Well today hopefully won't be to much of a challenge for me. We are going to my brother and girlfriend's place. It will only be us and them. I have my food planned out today. I made a WW dessert. Chocolate Chip Pie (7 pts for a serving) so I want to do well so I can eat that. I hope it tastes good. I guess we will see.

I'm heading to the fabric store to buy some fabric, it is on sale. Hopefully they have a nice selection. I'm going to start making some of my pillow cases. I might make a lot and try to sell them at a craft fair in the fall. I have no clue if it will work out or not. If it doesn't I will have enough pillowcases for my future nieces and nephews (we have one on the way - Tim's brother and his wife are expecting, my first time being an aunt!) for gifts..

Loving this product!

Look at what I found. I love anything with Peanut Butter, but it is so high in points. They have been talking about PB2 at my weight watchers meeting. I placed some of this in my fat free cool whip and it was sooooooo good. I then placed it between two low-fat graham crackers and froze it. It tasted like a peanut butter pie. Yummy! (1 pt for 2 tab)



(that is .3 grams of fiber)

For Sale!

I started a tradition with my son last year and that was holiday and special occasion pillow cases.  He loves them and can't wait to see what pillow case is on his pillow when we change his sheets.  I'm in the process of selling some cases.  I'm taking orders for back to school pillow cases.  $10 a case.  If you want to order more maybe we can make a deal.  Email me and let me know if you have a specific color in mind and I'll see what I can do.  

Pages

I tried to post my pages last night, but for some reason I kept getting an error message. Hopefully today I can. Hope you enjoy all of the pictures, there are a lot and even more!